Monday, September 21, 2015

Into the Unknown

The roads are endless, but there is
always a destination.
So I'm off to another journey into the unknown.

I just recently handed in my resignation letter from my job and it's the scariest thing I have ever done in a long while. Scary in the sense that I'm not exactly sure what the future holds for me.

Then again, I guess life in general is like riding a bicycle.

I could spend countless hours and days planning my next adventure - and get stuck second-guessing myself, doubting my preparations, paralyzing myself brooding over worst case scenarios.  Eventually, I step back, take a deep breath, and simply tell myself, "Just do it."

Not everything goes according to plan.
Fix it. Keep pedaling.
It took me a long while to just do it, and now that I have, I find myself in unfamiliar territory. The prospect of impending unemployment, limited job opportunities, and the fear of not knowing what's around the next corner is both unnerving and exhilarating. Kind of similar to what I experience on the road. You know, something like cycling in the dark in unfamiliar territory, harboring thoughts of impending danger, limited options for help or rescue, and the fear of not knowing if that next switchback leads to your destination or several more miles of pavement. But I keep pedaling, because stopping is not an option. Don't stop. Keep going. I can do it.

And so I do the same in real life. Keep going, Jay. Don't stop. You can do it. You have no other option but to keep going forward.

Reassess your desires, passions, priorities, goals. Make do with what you have. Shed everything that you don't need. Live within your means. Treasure the few friends and loved ones in your life. Take care of your health. Be thankful for everything that has happened in your life. No regrets. You probably have a little over 2 decades left in your life if you play your cards right. Live the rest of your days the best way you know how. Be true to your yourself and others. Don't be miserable. Know who you are and what you are capable of. Don't try to change what you know are the best things about you.

Sweat, aches and pains - and then I look up
and around, and I realize how amazing
it is to be alive.
I don't know how my actions are going to play out. But like I always scream to myself in the middle of a hellish climb in the middle of the dark with the next town still hours away..."Keep pedaling damn it." And then I let out a laugh under my breath, and manage a faint smile.

I'll be alright, man. I'll be alright.










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